i can never get a break and everyone else thinks they dont get a break from my mistakes but its my luck im making the world around me fall down on my shoulders i think to myself every damn day do i deserve it what am i doing wrong i cant be perfect but i can fix some things the best fucking way i can no one understands me i just smile because im not letting anyone break me down till i get home alone i wish i could meet someone that knows what it feels like to walk through hell and back and knows what it feels to have no one but ive always knew that i would always stand alone im used to it i dont like it but i get it i get that im not the best person i dont have the best attitude i dont have the best body the best anything but i get threw it  everyday of my life i dont know how but i do because i cant just let myself go, one day one damn day ill wake up and ill be skinny and ill be the person i want to be and ill be stronger then ever and i will go follow my dreams and then my family can kiss my ass because i did what they never thought i could do but i wont give them a damn dime out of my time or my words or my effort to be there or see them because they never did when i needed them most and that clearly isnt what anyone should feel like but im the girl who gets the shit but im not saying its there fault maybe because im just not for you useless heartless people but ill be one of the best mistakes my mom has ever created so kiss my ass xoxo whitshit